The Return to Self: Week Two
For anyone who holds the courage to make the return to SELF, I am in deep honor of you. Some writers in this genre choose to focus only on love and light. I choose to be open about the so-called darkness as well. It’s not always going to be rainbows and butterflies, and that’s okay.
Further, Master Morya maintains light is not in opposition to the dark but rather a cellular shift from density to expansion, from physical to ethereal. He says, it's only in the attachment to a dualistic view of right and wrong, good and bad that the word got so tangled up.
So light actually includes all our experiences, even those difficult and painful to our human selves in the journey back to SELF.
On that note, I wanted to open a discussion on the human side effects of connecting to your soul’s wisdom. Please share your own in the comments or on our Facebook group page, if you choose. I also have a few SELF-taught exercises for those of you who enjoy them.
If you missed Week One, you can find it by clicking HERE.
THE SIDE EFFECTS OF CONNECTING TO YOUR SOUL’S WISDOM
First of all, most people find the more they connect with their soul voice the more things in their life that do not resonate with the soul fall apart. Relationships, jobs, friends, the location in which they live, family and anything that keeps them from living a soul-led life might change drastically. Often times, this feels like a great trauma to the human.
If you read my book, you already know, that when I could no longer ignore the deep flowing river of my soul leading me to a different shore in life, I had to leave my job, my then husband, and then my hometown to be true to who I AM.
It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do, but the deep knowing my life existed elsewhere was something I could not shake, something I could not deny anymore. It took two years to listen and act, plus days of deep breathing and long walks in nature. Today, because I listened, I am thriving. But easy it was not.
If you like to journal and/or using the soul communication method you created or used from the last post, I invite you to answer the following questions:
That leads me to the next side effect: If you would like your life to stay the same, the inner journey will not be pleasant for you. One does not dive deep into the return to SELF if they can avoid it with minimal discomfort.
For others, like many of you, it hardly seems like a choice. The discomfort of staying the same, of not allowing soul evolution into their life, is so intensely strong, there really is no other way but to leap into the vastness that lies before them.
I have been both.
I hold many vivid past life memories of putting off the experience of self-realization. I distracted myself with relationships, burned myself out trying to save the world (I’m too busy fixing the world to dive deep within), trying to be the best at something (In one life that was music, not for the expression but for the ambition).
The list goes on, and one does not need to know about all their other lives to understand what I am saying. Again, those lives were not wrong or bad, but simply experiences.
However, in this life I knew without a doubt, this was it! This was the life I designated to the self-realization experience.
During the next week, I invite you to take some time to ponder within. How deep do you want to take your spiritual journey in this life, knowing there is no right or wrong answer?
Sing with your soul. Walk with your soul. Have an open discussion on what role the inner journey will play in this human life. Connect in your own unique way.
No firm answers have to be formed. Setting the intention to opening to the communication between human life and soul wisdom is enough. Sitting with it is enough. If you choose, allow the soul to communicate in whatever way is appropriate for you.
Next week, I will dive deeply into discernment between soul wisdom and human thoughts, emotions, and distractions. Please feel free to share your experiences below or on the Facebook group page.
Thank you so much for everyone who visited the website last week, to everyone who shared personally with me, and asked questions. I will get to them over the coming weeks.
In honor of you!
RE-CONNECTING TO YOUR SOUL’S WISDOM
WEEK ONE OF A TEN-WEEK SERIES
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When people ask the typical get-to-know-you question - What do you do for a living? - I receive a mix of reactions to my answer: I show people how to communicate with and create from the soul.
Some people brush over it like I am speaking a foreign language and change the subject quickly, and that’s okay. For others, something clicks inside them, and the questions begin, such as “Soul, what is that? How do you talk to soul? Why would you talk to your soul? What’s the benefit?”
If you are here on the New Energy Creator Facebook group and/or website, it’s likely you are the latter. It’s even more likely that you have been in communication with your soul intimately in this life and/or many other lifetimes here on Earth.
One way I answer the above question is: the human experience - this human life you are in right now and the roles you play - are but one chapter in the book containing the full journey of your soul’s experiences. The soul is eternal core of each of us, which exists forever, with or without the physical body, and with no beginning and no end.
Some humans go their whole life without realizing this part of their existence until death when upon leaving the physical body, they realize their consciousness, or awareness, of SELF still exists. This was the case of my father, who upon his passing in May 2012, began to speak with me.
“It’s just incredible,” he said months after leaving the physical body. “I exist, and I can still talk to you.”
My experience with him through his illness and death changed the course of my life forever. It’s not that I learned something new; it was that I remembered something so sacred and stunningly beautiful about myself there was no going back – I remembered I too held the wisdom I was seeking externally right here within me.
For this reason, I do not consider myself a teacher. I am simply here along with many others to remind you of the wisdom that lives within you at the soul level. This wisdom holds no linear beginning or end yet expands infinitely beyond the center of SELF. When I use SELF, I refer to all that you are – your human and soul experiences - the multiplicity of who you are - rolled into ONE big SELF.
THE RETURN TO SELF
It is my personal experience and deep inner knowing we can live a drastically different human experience when we consciously and consistently communicate with our souls throughout our human existence instead of only in between human lives. The kicker is that this human-to-soul communication is already ongoing, yet sometimes it is not at the surface of our awareness.
Most of us as humans have many roles to fulfill, such as bill payer, spouse, family member, parent, and so much more. It’s not that these human roles are bad or wrong, in fact I would argue there is no such thing, yet it does create a life experience in which we often lose touch with the wisdom contained in our individually unique soul space.
There is simply too much DOING and not enough BEING to create awareness of the soul connection, as Ascended Master El Morya (Master M) has told me many times.
If you think, “Oh my goodness, I’ve never talked with my soul.” Please consider asking yourself the following questions:
I call this intuition, or the ability to understand something immediately, without the need for intellectual reasoning, and instead from a state of expanded consciousness, or awareness. Intuition is one of the many languages spoken by the soul.
Maybe you’ve had to make a big decision, such as buying a house or deciding whether to marry your partner? Often times an answer becomes very clear to us beyond thought logic or even emotion but from deep within ourselves. I call this gnost, or inner knowing.
Both intuition and gnost are two ways our soul grabs our attention enough to deliver a message when it really matters.
Yet what if we didn’t only hear our soul’s messages only in crisis or life-altering situations? What if we maintained a continuously open channel of communication with the wise master that lives inside all of us? How would our lives be different?
CREATING YOUR REALITY FROM WITHIN
At inception, our human souls were born to create and experience those creations. So often I meet people who are sick of life and the human experience. They have lost their passion for life. Sometimes they are physically ill because of it.
I can relate because I was that person – sick, exhausted, and empty. Then I remembered creation from within – from soul – from source – was my natural state of being. When I separated from my true nature, I became extremely sick. When I created in awareness, I found myself thriving.
There are many schools of thought out there on how to create a fulfilling human life. Most of us grew up with the idea that if you work hard, it pays off. I certainly tried that one for more than a decade.
Others, like the law of attraction, say you must control your thoughts and emotions to create the life you want to live. The problem here is that human thoughts and emotions are extremely varied. How many different directions can your thoughts go just in the course of one hour? How about your emotions? Humans are capable of feeling a dozen or more separate emotions in under a minute.
Trying to control every thought and emotion to make sure you are always 'happy and positive' can work for a bit, but damn, that’s a lot of work too, especially when you are living a human life that includes grief, loss, and so much more. Why deny yourself the ability to experience the full range of human thoughts and emotions?
Instead, I found I could move beyond thoughts and emotions – allowing thoughts and emotions to flow without resistance – and instead, I could create from the part of me that exists without external validation and that holds wisdom way beyond my years in this human life.
I found, or remembered, rather, when we open to the ineffable love the soul has for the human and begin to integrate our human experience with that of our soul, we begin to create our reality at the MASTER level. In that state of being, the experiences of intuition and gnost previously mentioned - and so much more - become available to us twenty-four hours a day, 365 days a year.
CREATING THE SOUL CONNECTION
One of the ways I created a deeper human-to-soul connection was through deep breathing. I know. Eye roll. But it doesn’t cost a thing to give it a go. If anything, you are sure to feel more relaxed and present through deep breathing, so there is nothing to lose.
The human-soul communication channel is opened up through breathing deeply through the nose and into the bottom of the abdomen. This opens the channel between the human facet of SELF to the depths of our soul’s wisdom.
Moving from shallow unconscious breathing into deep, conscious breathing is like upgrading from coffee shop Wi-Fi to Google Fiber broadband internet. Through the expanded breath, we can open to remembering and exploring our divinity within, with childlike curiosity rather than adult-driven mission.
When we find this relaxed and curious state of being, the answers that already exist to life’s questions – no matter how big or small - surface with grace and ease and sometimes with a little patience, especially when we are begging this process for the first time in a while.
In this state of being, the human can also state its needs to the soul. When we communicate our human needs to soul as they arise, it provides the soul the opportunity to create solutions for us. I have been amazed at the opportunities my soul has created for me in my human experience.
Without being attached to the how, by throwing out the plans and goals, your soul will create with you everything you could possibly need and desire in this life if you are willing to open to its gifts – in state of relaxation and with patience as the creative solutions form and appear to the human self.
Most grandly, the soul holds an indescribable, unlimited amount of unconditional love for the human expression of SELF. With each breath, you can allow that self-love to radiate into the cells and space between the cells of your being.
By allowing yourself to fill up with self-love, you create energy from within you. With each allowing breath, you lessen your reliance on external sources of energy, filling yourself up with the love and support you sought externally from within, instead.
If you choose, you can begin communicating with your soul right now. You can read some tips below or simply find safe space to be alone. I prefer a walk in nature or a long swim to sitting on a meditation cushion indoors, but your experience is up to you.
SELF-TAUGHT READER EXPERIENCE
Begin with deep breaths through the nose, all the way down the abdomen, and into the space behind the belly button.
Keep your mouth closed, if it feels okay to you. No stress. Everything is serving you in the moment.
Feel the rise and fall of the breath until it feels like it is time to proceed. Take your time. There is no rush.
With each conscious breath feel into where the human part of you resides within the body. No thinking or editing. Whatever first pops into your awareness. Observe rather than analyze.
Continuing to breathe, sense where your soul resides within your physical body.
No thinking or editing. Instead open to using a soft sense of focus on internal sensations and energetic stimulations. Observe with curiosity, what is occurring within.
See, sense, and know the connection between the human self and the soul self within your physical and energetic bodies.
You may see images and feel sensations, which are the languages of the soul. Sometimes our soul talks to us in words. Open up to all forms of soul communication. Just knowing is also a form of soul communication.
In feeling the connection of human and soul, allow yourself to feel the unconditional love the soul has for you the human.
Allow the love to radiate from your core and into the edges of YOU. Continuing to breathe and without any rush, allow the experience of self-love to permeate your body.
See, sense, and know how the soul loves every aspect and facet of who you are – all perceived imperfections and idiosyncrasies. Your soul loves each and everything about you – your physical appearance, your human personality, everything you have or have not done in this life. It is a love without bounds - without conditions.
Continuing to breathe, without thinking or editing your experience, allow the human self to trust the soul – to know deeply it has the best interest of the human at highest priority at all times, even if it doesn’t seem that way sometimes.
See, sense, and know how the soul is wrapping around you the human in total honor of who you are, in complete support for what you do. Breathe deep.
In this connection between human and soul selves, you can begin your conversation, if you choose.
You can ask anything and allow your soul to answer in its infinite wisdom. You might say, “Soul, I have a decision to make. Can you please show me the possibilities in front of me and assist me in opening up to new potentials that I might not have seen yet.”
Often times, we believe a decision is one or the other. The soul will sometimes say it’s neither and open up a new option for us, if we are relaxed and patient. Might as well explore every option.
If there is nothing specific to ask right now, I often say before I go to sleep at night, “Soul, show me that which is already there, but I cannot yet see.”
Then, in relaxed patience, creative solutions will appear in your life as you allow new and exciting soul experiences to become part of your human reality.
Continue to breathe deeply. Open to creating a unique practice of your own.
Play with childlike curiosity as you get to know your soul again, or in a deeper way. I am always amazed as I find new layers to explore after years – andlifetimes – of connection.
Enjoy the return to SELF once again.
THE IMPORTANCE OF PATIENCE AND RELAXATION
I once had a client I worked with over two months. She felt she was not connecting with her soul no matter how hard she tried. Then one morning she called me. She was at a concert when her soul spoke to her loud and clear, putting forth a solution and a path that had never occurred to her on the human level. It changed the course of her life completely and in a satisfactory way for both the soul and the human.
For me, I often receive soul information in the dream state, specifically in the early morning hours right before I wake up.
If you choose, be open to various forms of soul communication. It is a practice that grows easier with time. I have found the more relaxed I am, the clearer and more frequent my soul voice comes in.
SUGGESTED JOURNAL QUESTIONS
I am a huge fan of asking your soul questions and seeing what wisdom bubbles to the surface. If you like to journal, take notes, or create voice recordings into your phone, consider asking yourself the following questions and see what comes up.
I find, in writing without agenda, a wealth of information shows up – wisdom that cannot be bought or read from external source – wisdom unique to my own experience.
As you describe the experiences, you can, if you choose, invite your soul to join you in the writing or voice recording process. You might write the experience down in story form, and see what new wisdom pops up. I’m willing to bet you will be amazed at what you learn about yourself through the experience as I have been. My own journals are now in a published book, with great reviews. My human self never imagined that one!
FINAL WORDS FOR WEEK ONE
Everyone is going to connect to his or her soul voice in a different way. If the process becomes frustrating or heavily mental (you might feel pressure in your head or find yourself in shallow breath), drop the exercise and simply focus on the deep breathing.
Perhaps take a walk in nature alone or do something that relaxes you without a lot of external stimulation, like listening to music without words.
It is more than enough to set the intention to communicate with your soul and to spend some time alone with yourself, relaxing. The details of the how are not important. Breathing and patience with your human self will open the door.
Be open to all forms of communication – images, sensations, dreams, intuition, gnost, music, etc. Some find instead of writing, painting or playing a musical instrument puts them in touch with their soul voice.
Create your own practice in honor and celebration of the grand uniqueness of you!
Thank you so much for joining us in this ten-week series. Even more so, you might thank yourself creating a weekly space to RETURN TO SELF. It is nothing short of GRAND!
Lauren, Sar'h & Master M