Dreaming. It’s such an amazing part of being a human. We can fly in our dreams, experiencing the absence of Earth’s gravity. Dreams can shut off our brains long enough to allow us to work out non-linear, creative solutions for our waking lives, and often process or integrate issues seemingly too heavy, too dark for the daylight.
Many people, myself included, have experienced talking with loved ones or pets who have left the physical world in our dreams, gaining a sense of peace after the loss. Dreams can warn us about people or situations, or alert us to a surprise or shift headed our way. The possibilities are endless in the dream state!
As I describe in Becoming Sar’h: Book One, a dream is what made me finally make the decision to leave my marriage, which was no longer serving my soul journey. All the facts in the world were not enough evidence, for lack of a better term, to leave, but the sensation I received from a dream told me without a doubt that it was time to move on. The dream occurred in May. I left my marriage that June. Four months later, I had an awakening experience that would shift my entire journey in this life and become the topic of my first published book.
Similarly, my friend, Alice, told me it was a dream that triggered her leaving her career in medicine. In her dream, she was swimming in the lake at the bottom of a huge canyon. She realized she was alone in this magical place as she became aware of the stunning beauty of the canyon.
“When I woke up, I knew I had told myself (through the dream), that this particular part of my journey was mine alone and that it would yield beauty unlike any I had ever experienced,” Alice told me. A few months later, she went through an evolutionary soul experience, which is another story for another time.
Lucid Dreaming, Remembering and Analyzing Dreams
Lucid dreaming is the term used to describe being aware that you are dreaming, while dreaming, and even being able to make choices to shift the course of the dream. It was something I first read about as a teenager and knew I had mastered when I had that panic-filled college exam dream – you know the one where you realize you have an exam you did not study for and then you are desperately trying to figure out what to do. Instead of doing the normal panic routine, I realized what was going on in my dream and decided to find friends and invite them out to wine and dinner. I sat there in the dream, drinking wine and enjoying my friends’ company instead. What did it mean? Not much except the simple realization that I am the creator of my reality both awake and asleep.
That brings me to the next point. Not every dream is going to mean something or symbolize something in your waking life. I call this story burn off. It’s simply all the stories in all the realities you exist in, playing out. Story lines that you did not choose, that make no sense in waking life, stories that do not belong to you or your journey. To me, story burn off feels like a release of sorts.
And, as I spoke of above, there are the times when you know the dream holds a message. You wake up, recall the dream, and deep down inside you know it needs to be examined. Sometimes a dream dictionary like Tony Crisp’s will help point you in the right direction. Other times, it is something for you to decode yourself – at the soul level.
My friend, Tess, said it quite eloquently, “I’d say the dream state has been a very personal, unique experience. I found writing my dreams down immediately upon awakening to be very helpful. Otherwise they would fade in moments. Then as time went on, I became more adept at unlocking my own symbolism that I received.”
Tess also said sometimes she would ask her soul a question and wait patiently to receive the answer in the dream state. “But usually when least expected,” she added. “So one has to be patient and let (the question) go first."
On that note, here are my tips for remembering your dreams and lucid dreaming:
ASPECT INTEGRATION IN THE DREAM STATE
For those who really want to dive into the deep end of awareness…
For those of you looking to go even deeper in the dream state, I cannot talk about dreams without talking about aspects. As I wrote in Becoming Sar’h: Book One, aspects are identities our souls created in the past to answer the question, “Who am I?” They often take on their own voice and cause chaos and confusion in our lives if we are not conscious of them. Sometimes we create aspects to fill roles in certain situations, like daughter, wife, or business owner. Additionally, past life aspects or identities come into play and even ones created in dreams and other realities.
When we are unconscious of them, aspects can drag us in all directions. They can literally haunt us. Sometimes, when I thought I was dealing with a ghost or earth-bound spirit, it turned out to be my own aspect haunting me. Most importantly, instead of trying to run off rogue aspects, usually they need to be invited in for integration. The dream state is a common place to integrate aspects because it can be an easier place to do so. Lindsay, who recently shared with me the following story, knows this all too well…
One night, Lindsay found herself in a lucid dream where she was in a dark, windowless attic of a house, surrounded by unopened boxes. Her husband and brother were there with her in the dream. While exploring the attic, they noticed a doorway hidden behind the boxes that had been sealed shut and decided to break it open and explore what was beyond the door.
They entered a room with more unopened boxes, but in this room there was a window with light beaming in. Lindsay described, “We knew we were there for something important but we didn't know what.”
Suddenly, coming up from the floor, Lindsay heard a terrifying, demonic voice, one that came from an energetic being that she couldn't see. However, she could feel it shout, "DO YOU REMEMBER ME?"
The energy began flying around the room and attacking Lindsay, trying to get into her body.
“I was scared shitless, and I tried everything I could think of to send this evil being away and keep it from getting into me. Nothing was working. In desperation, I called out to Archangel Michael to send this evil thing packing, but even that didn't work. Michael did not show up to help. I then realized that no one was going to help me. In that moment of panic and mortal terror, the demon flew into my body, and I suddenly woke up in a cold sweat with the most intense fear I have ever felt surging through my body.”
Lindsay said she lay in bed for a few hours breathing and shaking through an incredible amount of fear.
“Lying there I realized that demonic energy was me. That was an aspect of my soul that was ready to come home, to integrate into me. That was why it went into my body."
Lindsay added that she was beyond thankful that she had done the aspect integration while sleeping.
“That aspect would have scared me so badly while I was awake, I probably would have thought I was losing my mind. I was also glad that I had two people I love and feel very safe around with me in the dream state while it was happening.”
Lindsay said this experience reinforced her deep inner knowing that as a soul, we’ve had all sorts of experiences. “From the most saintly, pious human to the most evil, fearsome expression of darkness, we have experienced all of it. There's nothing we are not or have not been,” she added.
What an experience to show her – and us through her story – that we, as souled beings, contain everything – light, dark and everything in between. It reminds me of the quote from Ascended Master Tobias, “A denial of the dark is a denial of half of yourself, if not more” (Crimson Circle).
For more of Lindsay’s stories, you can visit her website here.
IF YOU WANT TO GO EVEN DEEPER…
Interested in exploring aspects more? I highly recommend the Crimson Circle organization’s Aspectology School Online February 24-26 or check the website at www.CrimsonCircle.com to see if there is a class in your area.
Whether you are working with lucid dreaming or aspect integration, I am here to support you. You can sign up for a soul session, in-person or via Skype, on my website NewEnergyCreator.com. If you have questions, please fill out the contact form, and I will get back with you shortly.
In the meantime, keep dreaming – both awake and asleep!
Lauren and Sar'h
Many folks in the new age community would have you believe in a concept called a twin flame relationship. If you haven’t heard of the twin flame or twin soul concept, it is understood as another human being serving as the other half of your soul. As the myth goes, each of us has only one twin flame, which after being split, the two souls went their separate ways, incarnating over and over again to have a human experience before reuniting to ascend together. Sounds like the stuff of fairy tales, right?
Another source says that each side of the twin is a complete soul but their task is to become more complete in reuniting, balancing the feminine and the masculine together. How does that make any sense? You are either a complete soul or not. Complete is an absolute; there is no more or less complete. Furthermore, our inner divinity is neither masculine nor feminine. The soul does not know or operate within dualities, opposites or separations. If we are searching for our masculine or feminine counterpart, we need to go no further than looking within, toward the soul.
Nothing short of the Cinderella or Snow White tales, the myth would have you believe the twin flame relationship as the most fulfilling relationship on Earth, which comes with sacred sex, spiritual super powers and a happily ever after ending. Yet, in this twin flame community, they explain that there is usually a ‘runner’ in this reunion. They tell you the other person is scared or not ready. The worst part about this is the person who believes the other person is their twin flame will put up with all sorts of emotional and spiritual abuse from the person in question. They believe that if they are just patient enough and put up with enough bullshit the soul in question will return to them and the magic list of twin flame benefits will activate, basically fixing everything. And the cycle goes on and on with a never-ending search for this magical partner, delivering enlightenment.
Friends, I tell you this is one hell of a fairy tale, equally as alarming as the concept of prince charming coming to save Snow White from the evil witch. The first thing wrong with the twin flame myth is that you are a complete, sovereign being regardless of the relationship you happen to be in. Second, finding this so called twin flame is by no means a requirement for self-actualization/ enlightenment/ ascension, which really is nothing more than completing your cycle of lifetimes on earth through integration of all parts of yourself and in complete love for and acceptance of yourself. If you’re running around looking for your ‘other half’ in a panic, I promise ascension will not even be an option. The ‘other half’ is you!
I wasn’t introduced to this concept of a twin flame until 2013 after a spiritual awakening. I’ll admit it was one hell of a tale that mesmerized me. In 2014, I met a man and our connection blew me away. “Could this be him, my twin flame?” I thought. Cue damsel in distress mentality. Fortunately, just days after our meeting, I was scheduled to fly to Costa Rica, where I was volunteering at a sea turtle rescue and writing my book, Becoming Sar'h: Book One.
One night, I was walking down the beach in an electric storm. The sky was illuminating every 30 seconds or so with the brilliant pink and purple glow of the lightening strikes. Yeshua (some of you may know him as Jesus) and I were walking barefoot, side by side down the black sand beach. Yeshua visits me – like thousands of other people – on occasion. I said to him, “Do you think this man could be my twin flame?”
Before we had been joking and laughing with each other. Yeshua has quite the sense of humor. After the question, he became quiet and contemplative.
“Lauren, what does your soul tell you about twin flames?”
Like any good teacher, Yeshua showed me where to look not what to see (I learned from the best), so I reached deep within for the answer.
“My soul tells me I AM my own twin flame,” I said, waiting to see if this was what he was looking for.
Yeshua flashed a smile that seemed to radiate from his heart. I knew I had not disappointed him. Together we finished our walk in silence, and I basked in the honor and respect my teacher and friend had for me.
Later, I would find out through a series of dreams that this man and I had experienced many lives together, and we had a lot to remember and learn from one another in this lifetime. It was a huge gift to have found each other – one we had planned before incarnating again. Yet, if I had been in throws of the twin flame myth, and I had been chasing after the romantic notion of him completing me, I would have missed all the lessons and joy of sharing our experiences – something that has brought me great joy over the course of our almost two-year-long reunion. He remains a great friend whose opinions I trust, and I’m so glad I did not miss that.
Technically, this man would fit into the new age concept of soul mate. One source says these human souls are our ‘soul family’ reincarnated whom we have many lifetimes with and who help us evolve and dissipate karma. Further more, soul relationships have another category called karmic relationships. These are relationships with souls, we’ve shared past lives with and met up with again to heal the past and help each other evolve.
I don’t disagree with being open to these relationships helping us evolve and release karma (or you could just evolve and release the karma alone, but I digress...). My resistance to them is what happens when our human aspect – the one who has been trained to believe that there is another human out there who will fix everything – starts creating stories around the people we meet. I have seen it turn beautiful, advanced, sovereign souls (men and women) into blubbering, sad, angry humans over and over again. I know because I have been sucked into the construct before – especially in several recent past lives.
Here’s how it usually happens: we meet someone and instantly know it is significant. We – either on our own or with the help of a psychic reader – identify someone as one of these relationship categories – twin flame, soul mate or karmic relationship in our heads. We attach stories and expectations onto the person whose soul is so very familiar to us, and then we are upset when that person doesn’t want to participate at the depth we expect or vice versa.
We or they choose to either wait around for the other person to have an awakening and continually put up with their abuse, hanging onto some small amount of hope that they will realize the relationship. Or, we jump from person to person, hoping this one will finally be it. Either way it becomes an addiction, a huge distraction from the soul’s journey and especially detrimental to the self-actualization process, should that be your choice in this life.
Just recently, in my own inner exploration, my soul showed me a trap door. He/she/it said, "You can open this door to fully to experience the love I, soul, have for you, the beautiful, funny, spunky, sometimes really bitchy human aspect called Lauren. Are you ready?”
I was, and I did. I went within and opened the trap door unable to know what to predict. That’s because I had no idea what kind of love would pour out of the door. If anyone had every loved me to the point of human extreme, it was my father. It’s the most powerful form of unconditional love I have experienced in this life - and my only gauge. Well, the internal soul love for me, the human, was like that times infinity. Words are beyond limiting for the love I experience(d).
Today I spend hours basking in that self-love. I do not long for or want a steady romantic partner in my life. My time alone is too precious. I’m too busy wrapped up in being in love with me. (I know – BARF – but it’s true). Maybe one day I will experience a human relationship with someone else who has opened his own trap door to the ineffable love of soul. I won’t settle for less than that. Two sovereign beings sharing a life experience no matter how long it lasts is the only way to go for me.
Friends, your souls are calling. That longing you feel for love and recognition from lovers, friends and/or family – that’s really your soul calling you, requesting ever so patiently for you to finally start the internal relationship he/she/it has waited so very long for. Won’t you consider opening the door? I promise those external, sometimes mythical and mostly addictive relationships will not even compare to the amount of LOVE the soul has for you, the human.
This is what moving from the new age into the new energy is all about. You are sovereign. You are your own creator. You are complete.
Will it fix everything? NO.
Will you still have bad days? YES.
Will you become immediately enlightened? PROBABLY NOT.
Yet, life is a hell of a lot easier when you operate in the self-love between soul and human.
Self-love is essential in the journey to return to your true creator nature.
How can you be a master creator when you're not head over heels for yourself?
Published in March 2018, the Thirty Days of Self-Love book and interactive journal is available for FREE download at www.becomingsarh.com. That's how passionate I am about it.
Also, since writing this post so many years ago - the most read post of all time - I will update you that I have been in a beautiful relationship with another sovereign being for almost two years. We are loving sharing our realization with each other in this beautiful last life. We have no stories about our relationship. It doesn't take any work to maintain. We simply enjoy BEING together. There is no strife or struggle involved and never has been.
Since I was a little girl, the words ‘I will pray for you’ have made me recoil. Way beyond eye rolling, I could feel my apprehension to the phrase in a deep, guttural way, permeating every cell in my body with a resounding NO. When I heard myself speak these words - the few times I actually did - to meet societal expectations, I immediately felt like a fraud, and the gut sickness would get even worse.
I couldn’t comprehend in my mind why these words I had heard spoken so many times in my Catholic upbringing would bring me such disgust. Later and much to my surprise this concept would also exist in the spiritual groups - those in which I initially found refuge during my overwhelming awakening process. Eventually, the prayer circles and email chains even from my most awake friends would make it unbearable to attend gatherings or participate other ways. It was not something I could rationalize in my head only something I felt at the soul level.
Only in the last year have I been able to verbalize why I have such an adverse reaction to prayer. First, those words imply something is wrong with what you are going through. Growing up in Texas, when I heard someone say, ‘I will pray for you,’ it really meant you’re fucked up and hopefully God will fix you. The words were rooted in judgment and sometimes pity. At its worst, ‘I will pray for you’ might be what a bigoted neighbor said about the openly gay man living down the street. At its best, ‘I will pray for you’ comes from what appears to be a genuine concern. Either way, the phrase is completely unaligned with honoring and respecting the sovereignty of the soul – both our own and those around us.
A situation that seemingly calls for prayer is likely an extremely painful experience for the human aspect of yourself or others. However, when we tap into the soul – that wise master within – we can feel it is a place of no duality, and the human constructs of right, wrong, good and bad cease to exist. The soul has two desires – to express (create) and to experience those expressions (creations). Sometimes those creations are no fun for the human self AND simultaneously, they are creating radical evolution for the soul. Existing in an expanded awareness, or consciousness, can certainly help us process these events.
For example, I experienced extreme drug addiction from about the age of 17 to 20. It was an awful human experience – one that nearly killed me. I’m sure there were many people praying for me at the time, but I was not one of them. I knew deep within myself that I had created this situation, and I would be the one to decide to pull myself out of it – no external god needed. By sinking into the pits of despair and the possession of spirit and body created by addiction, I experienced what it was like to pull myself out of it through deep soul connection. Through this life event, I witnessed first-hand the divinity I held within. It changed everything about how I viewed myself and the world around me. I wouldn’t trade a moment of the suffering for the insight gained into who I AM. When I look back now, that addiction feels only like a soul experience – not one I can label with a judgment like bad or wrong.
Additionally, when my dad lay dying in a hospital room unconscious, you think I could have mustered a small prayer but I could not. I simply whispered in his ear, ‘Dad, I support you in whatever decision you make. If it is time to go, I understand. If you want to stay here, I will support that too in any way I can.’
As much as it felt like an amputation of who I was at the time to lose him, my duty as his soul family and human daughter was only to hold space for him to decide – to honor his soul’s sovereignty or autonomy with complete and total respect – and to make sure the doctors and nursing staff honored his wishes. Through witnessing my father’s ability to decide his life on his terms, I was able to witness once again my own divinity as he witnessed his.
Eventually, my father made the decision to get well enough to walk right out of that hospital when no one said he would. Later, he would leave the physical body on his own terms – not anyone else’s. The week he died he played golf and sat in his favorite chair never to wake up. It was his choice and his alone. If God or the universe was ever involved, it was only as a witness.
When we pray for people’s outcomes, we dishonor the choices their souls have made in this life. When we pray for ourselves, it takes us out of our true creator nature and implies we are not in charge of our own lives. When we pray to God and say I am lost; I am stuck in life, we create lost, stuck energy. Instead we might say: soul, bring forth the answers that are already there. If you are listening and open, your soul will provide answers – often beyond the span of your imagination.
When we pray for world peace, we put out there that there is something wrong with the world and energy follows. We fail to see the consciously expanded view of what is going on around us. When we pray for peace, we are judging. We are in duality. Could we not simply state as one of my favorites Adamus St. Germain says – All is well in all of creation? Let us allow it to be so.
In our modern world, we are not only asked to pray in person but online too. How often are we asked to type ‘Amen’ to cure someone’s cancer? I promise you neither God nor Jesus is in heaven counting likes and amens on Facebook. They are honoring the human soul who is going through a soul experience.
If someone does ask for our assistance, instead of praying for him or her, we can ask for light to be shed on a possibility or answer they may not consciously see. By saying, I illuminate the possibility for XX to get well, we are still honoring his or her sovereignty and autonomy in choosing his or her own path. We are simply assisting in bringing possibilities that already exist into plain view.
Instead of praying for someone, we also can celebrate his or her soul’s journey. That homeless man on the street – let’s celebrate that his soul has chosen a path that will give him many soul experiences, teaching him a great deal. That woman suffering an illness – let’s celebrate that her soul is truly learning what it means to live. That politician screaming from the pulpit – let’s celebrate that while their human is trying to gain power, their soul is learning about the true powerlessness that exists on this planet.
Instead of praying for someone who is dying, why can’t we celebrate the life they have left and the amazing journey they are about to embark on upon leaving the physical body? Is there no greater gift we can give to our fellow humans and loved ones than to honor and respect their soul’s ability to chose in complete autonomy what it is they wish to express and experience?
That’s why I’m an advocate of compassion over prayer. Compassion is total acceptance and allowing of what is. It is not trying to change anything about another’s situation. Compassion includes absolute honor and respect for the soul-level choices of others. It is not saying: this person must get well, never suffer, must have money and a house to be happy, etcetera. It is saying my soul honors the journey of your soul in the deepest way possible. There is no sympathy or empathy involved.
God, spirit, the universe, or whatever term you wish to use is never going to sweep into your life or the lives of others and make everything better, especially when your requests are not in line with the sovereignty of the souls involved. Instead spirit is watching you, waiting patiently for you to figure out that you are the sole creator of your journey. As spirit witnesses you express from the soul and experience those creations, it too is reminded of its true creator nature. And if you can step back far enough to get the expanded view, you too might see the indescribable beauty of the mess we call human life.
Thanks, friends, for creating a safe space for me to share my journey and for sharing yours on my Facebook page.