Hello, conscious creators!
It seems I am so behind on everything these days. My human self can't possibly keep up with all of my soul creations, and I still have to sleep a little. One of you lovely newsletter readers gently reminded me I was way behind on my monthly updates, so thank you. I have so much to announce, including a very big move, but you'll have to read down to the bottom to find out more.
First, I wrapped up the 30-Days of Self-Love Experience in mid-April, which coincided with a six-week road trip in the western United States. It was beyond my wildest imagination as more than thirty people joined us for the experience - many participating in the private, safe forum that is my Patreon page. Think Facebook group - only a more private, supportive, and interactive community. Below I have included the last post from the journey, hence the newsletter title.
Next, I am off to Europe to walk the Camino de Santiago for two weeks. Then it's off to Munich, Germany to meet friends also in the consciously creative space. The trip concludes with New Energy Creator's first European workshop. You can read all about it HERE. If you would like to join me on the journey, I also will be posting on the Patreon page during the month.
The next formal Patreon series begins July 3rd. It is a 12-week series, in which we will explore the senses of the soul each week through writing prompts and videos, which is also discussed below. So much more to come!
Here's the last post from the 30-Days of Self-Love Series, followed by our big announcement...drum roll, please...If you would like to check out more public posts from the series, go HERE.
DAY 30: SURFING INTO ENLIGHTENMENT
After my father passed away in 2012, I found the Avett Brothers - an Americana band with an incredible sound and message. Something in their music spoke so deeply to my soul, and it quickly became my medicine. The music told me there was so much more to life if I simply opened my eyes. I couldn't fathom what peace, what happiness looked like then. I only knew deep down inside of me that something so much more fulfilling existed in this life for me. Five years later my eyes are open, like yours. Please listen to the song (maybe sing along with the lyrics copied below for you) before continuing.
I went on the search for something true. I was almost there when I found you. Sooner then my fate was wrote.
Perfectly it slit my throat And beads of lust released into the air. When I awoke you were standing there.
I was on the mend when I fell through. The sky around was anything but blue. I found as I regained my feet.
A wound across my memory. That no amount of stitches would repair. But I awoke and you were standing there.
There's no fortune at the end of the road that has no end. There's no returning to the spoils.
Once you've spoiled the thought of them. There's no falling back asleep.Once you've wakened from the dream.
Now I'm rested and I'm ready, I'm rested and I'm ready to begin. I'm ready to begin.
I went on the search for something real. Traded what I know for how I feel. But the ceiling and the walls collapsed Upon the darkness I was trapped. And as the last of breath was drawn from me. The light broke in and brought me to my feet.
Yesterday, I awoke still in the fog of consciousness, only viewing the ten yards in front of me. Then in the continuous state of total relaxation the fog cleared. My neighbor who I have been having a sweet, easy relationship with and I went surfing. He's a fantastic surfer and in so much better surf shape than me, so of course, I tired out before he was finished with his surf session.
Riding my last wave into shore, I thought about the last thirty days and where it all started. The idea came from a private session I gave channeling Master M for a person choosing the embodied enlightenment experience, in which he said self-love is synonymous with enlightenment and vice versa. Enlightenment is not something you do, you can only BE enlightenment. Now this makes sense to all of us on some level, but as you are aware it's quite another to exist in it.
As I drug my surfboard to shore, I began to think about how time and space moved through me on the trip. One day blended into the next. There were no sleepless nights, or if I was awake early, it was not an annoyance. When I needed company, friends showed up. When I needed silence, the birds muffled their chatter. When I needed money, clients signed up. When I ran out of gas, it was in front of a station. When I needed to keep my human self out of the way, I became drowsy. When I wanted a nice meal, someone bought me one...
I sensed into the notion - IT COMES TO YOU - as a sense of the soul. Senses are our ways of perceiving reality beyond human thoughts, emotions, and the five human senses. IT COMES TO YOU is not so much an aha! moment - it's not a staccato note. IT COMES TO YOU is more of a gently rolling wave to catch and ride effortlessly on your surfboard. It flows, and when you catch it, you don't even think about, "Wow, I caught this wave," because it will take you out of the moment and joy is simply assumed and experienced.
The IT COMES TO YOU sense is a given when you exist in the self-love space, perceiving yourself through the lens of love. The IT COMES TO YOU sense is no longer marked by external signs but internal knowing, or gnost. Gnost is no longer a simple sensation; it is a richly creative sense - the ability to create from nothing. Creation is the only action of spirit.
Sensing into this notion, I went back to the topic of money, which I covered in the self-love journey. It seemed so strange a concept in the context of being. You don't even need money stockpiled anymore, as things show up exactly when you need them. You don't need anything in literal or figurative storage. Experiences unfold without effort like a wave landing on sandy shores. The wave doesn't need a sign that says, "Hey, crash here," with a little arrow pointing down. The wave just knows where it is going to crash on shore. It is inevitable. It is innate.
When I found a nice spot to lie on the beach, I pulled down my wet suit and laid upon the hot rocks to warm up my back, as the ocean was still quite cold. I fell quickly into a deep sleep, yet was still lucid, and then a NEW sensation rolled over my body. It felt similar to wholeness, a little like completeness, yet so much grander. Whatever it was felt fantastic. Ecstasy without the intensity. Depth without over stimulation. Orgasmic with no longing for climax.
I took some more deep breaths. I thought about the Avett Brother's song. The one that carried me through the toughest of times. I allowed the notes to flow through my body. Still dreaming, still lucid. Then I could feel my man friend paddling into shore. With out looking up, I sensed his energy coming closer. I began to 'wake up', right when the lyric played through my body of consciousness, "And as the last of breath was drawn from me. The light broke in and brought me to my feet."
My human drew its last breath; it integrated. The death Sar'h talked about in her last POST, finally came into my total awareness. My master self was not standing there when I awoke, like in the lyrics. My master self no longer hovered over me like a ghost, or guide, or angel. My master self was in me. We were one and the same. Master self, in this body. Not separate. Aligned. I sensed a million eyes balls covering my body. Only the eyeballs each represented senses, ways of perceiving and creating in an ineffably expansional state.
The realization rolled in. I AM ENLIGHTENMENT. Enlightenment is all the senses at once. The NEW in all of this was that I did not fear the sensation would leave me. It has come and gone over the last year and a half. It used to leave me screaming and crying when it left. It left me longing for more and more, and I tried to force it, to recreate it in the old, familiar ways.
"There's was no fortune at the end of the road that has no end," the song lyrics floated in me. All this time I was searching for a way of being. Being can't be discovered. It can't be dug out of the ground or chased around the globe. Being can only be sensed. It is a way of perceiving the grandness of YOU, through the lens of love.
And for the first time ever, I knew the sensation wasn't going to leave me. I had crossed over the threshold never to return. Perceiving myself through the lens of love was the method I CHOSE to bring me here. It was my way of stepping into the SENSE of BEING.
The lifetimes-long question "Who is Sar'h?" answered itself. Sar'h is the consciousness of being, of embodied being. Enlightenment becomes too confining a word for this experience. Sar'h stories, Lauren's stories, Enola's stories - all just an act of consciousness. All ways to play from the center of being.
If you would like to read the full 30-Days of Self Love journey, you have two options:
1) Join us on PATREON, where we will also be starting a 12-week journey into the senses on July 3, 2017.
2) Pre-order the e-book, 30-Days of Self-Love from the STORE. This will include an edited and expanded version of the journey and will have a place for you to journal in responses to prompted questions. I chose to do it in e-book format so I could include color photos from our trip - something that is much too expensive to print. Master M will also be adding his information to each chapter.
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Thank you everyone for your energetic support in all forms. Oh yeah, our BIG NEWS...New Energy Creator is growing and will be moving from Colorado to California this year. We are creating a center that will focus on how to live life in the embodied enlightenment experience - a center for BEING. More to come in the next newsletter. Stay tuned, and hang on to your hats!
In the senses of love and gratitude,
Lauren, Ollie, Sar'h & Master M